Future perfectionism

I love fantasizing about my business in, like, 5 years.

This is when it feels safe to actually sit with the enormity of what I want to create, without dismissing my dreams as ridiculous or impractical.

Don’t get me wrong - as someone who went to therapy for years to learn how to even ALLOW myself to want things in life, it’s pretty remarkable to even HAVE dreams for myself, let alone huge ones.

But then what happens is I measure my current fumbling steps against a future vision of myself that I haven’t yet learned to create - and use the canyon between the two realities to silence myself.

This looks like my brain shouting: How can you build a creativity empire when you aren’t even brave enough to publish a fucking instagram post! Or: You have nothing new to say, you’re just regurgitating other people’s ideas!

And it means letting the vision of what I want to create prevent me from actually taking the first steps toward LEARNING how to get there.

Do you do this too?

If you have an idea for a short film, does it feel safer to allow the highlight reel to exist in your head than to start producing it, and face the possibility of it not quite living up to your expectations?

If you dream of acting with a certain company, do you pressure yourself to make your monologues PERFECT before you even submit for an audition because you’re convinced you’re not ready to be seen?

Here’s the thing:

Mediocrity isn’t the enemy of success.

This is as true for art as it is for anything else you want to create.

Want to become a master chef?

Get ready to make some really wonky dishes and learn from them.

Want to start a post-capitalist commune in the woods?

Nobody becomes a community-building farmer without some epic fucking fails.

The REAL enemy of creation, of change, is silence. Inaction.

Willingness to be mediocre is what creativity is BUILT on.

That vision in your head?

That fantasy?

Your awkward, fumbling steps are the BRIDGE to it, not the obstacle.

If you’ve been putting off creating something you want to see in the world, I can teach you how to embrace small steps on the way to building something amazing.